| I am no longer completely pellucid. |
[Jun. 1st, 2010|05:00 am] |
I never wanted to have to friends-only this journal, but unfortunately I now understand why everyone else ends up friends-only eventually. Please do not hesitate to ask me anything you would like to ask me here, however, as I would like to remain as pellucid as possible.
Most people really are assholes, aren't they? |
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| I dream of fire. |
[Jul. 9th, 2009|07:06 pm] |
Like cloudbreak in the desert. Sometimes it's all as clear as crystal; the point of absolute focus and certainty. I understand everything.
It's enough to make a grown man cry tears of joy.
I have literally never felt like this in my entire life. Everything is a decision. Everything is a decision we make, and I have decided that everything is going to be alright. |
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[Jul. 7th, 2009|04:10 am] |
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I've removed a few of you from my F-List. No offense to anyone who's gone; I just don't feel like I connected with some of you. Good luck in all of your endeavors. |
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[Feb. 16th, 2009|01:14 pm] |
Every moment I move faster and faster in a desperate attempt to keep pace with the trials confronting me; balance maintained only in violent action, and for each wild pull I make in one direction, a reckless push becomes necessary in the other to hold my footing, like a blood-soaked highwire act. No solace, no respite, no hesitation. Every breath, every decision, every stroke distilled to perfection.
Survival is a form of art. |
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| Writer's Block: Revolutionary Thought |
[Nov. 7th, 2008|03:32 am] |
Self-victimization. The belief that other people are responsible for every problem you have, and that if only those people would go away, all of your problems would be gone. |
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[Nov. 4th, 2008|07:19 am] |
"I've seen horrors... horrors that you've seen. But you have no right to call me a murderer. You have a right to kill me. You have a right to do that... but you have no right to judge me. It's impossible for words to describe what is necessary to those who do not know what horror means. Horror. Horror has a face... and you must make a friend of horror. Horror and moral terror are your friends. If they are not then they are enemies to be feared. They are truly enemies. I remember when I was with Special Forces. Seems a thousand centuries ago. We went into a camp to inoculate the children. We left the camp after we had inoculated the children for Polio, and this old man came running after us and he was crying. He couldn't see. We went back there and they had come and hacked off every inoculated arm. There they were in a pile. A pile of little arms. And I remember... I... I... I cried. I wept like some grandmother. I wanted to tear my teeth out. I didn't know what I wanted to do. And I want to remember it. I never want to forget it. I never want to forget. And then I realized... like I was shot... like I was shot with a diamond... a diamond bullet right through my forehead. And I thought: My God... the genius of that. The genius. The will to do that. Perfect, genuine, complete, crystalline, pure. And then I realized they were stronger than we. Because they could stand that these were not monsters. These were men... trained cadres. These men who fought with their hearts, who had families, who had children, who were filled with love... but they had the strength... the strength... to do that. If I had ten divisions of those men our troubles here would be over very quickly. You have to have men who are moral... and at the same time who are able to utilize their primordial instincts to kill without feeling... without passion... without judgment... without judgment. Because it's judgment that defeats us."
-Colonel Kurtz, Apocalypse Now |
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| My dog needs new ears. |
[Jul. 17th, 2008|02:54 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | Goldfrapp - Utopia | ] |
I no longer dream of the girl with dark hair. She is gone, and soon, I will be too. |
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[Jul. 8th, 2008|03:58 am] |
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It makes as much sense to say a man can't have a valid opinion on the legality of abortion as it does to say that a woman can't have a valid opinion on the legality of rape. |
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[Jul. 1st, 2008|09:23 pm] |
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I need a new job, and I need it yesterday. |
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| Fascist Baby |
[Jun. 25th, 2008|11:37 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | music | ] |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | Goldfrapp - Utopia | ] |
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| I understand now. |
[May. 28th, 2008|09:17 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Queens of the Stone Age - Running Joke | ] |
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